i have all these conspiracy theories about how every other artist who animates or uses shit like "Blender" or "Audacity" is cheating in some form or whatever but in truth i just need to accept that i'm a big fat fucking retard and i'm never going to properly figure this shit out because you just need to be born with that knowledge

i'm sick of this shit, i'm offing myself, this is the only reason i'm sticking around and if i'm not able to do it then what's the fucking point

pro tip for aspiring animators: Unless you're fucking Neo and you can just import all the information into your head, just give up and die it's all downhill from the moment you downloaded blender

ignore last post my dad said he believes in me

this is actually really cool and good and awesome because learning animation is really fucking daunting and overwelming because there's a million things you needs to memorise because these fucking morons can't just make a siumple fucki g animation software that's actually good and works and doesn't requite doing a million different fucking thigs just to colour in an animation that lasts twenty seconds and that's awesome considering that i can't even remember what the name of the main guy from Sienfeld who tells all the jokes BUT i can't just give up hecause when i do that there's nothing else to do but kill myself because i have no other aspirations or interests that arw worthm y time so either wzy it's just a big fucking stredssful horrible expirience that ends in me cutting my arm over and over out of anger anf mal+kojng a big mess that's RWALLLY SRARWAZKX TRESLLY REWALLY COOOOOOOL!L!!!!!!!!L

Fuck bro if Doobus Goobus can do it then so can I I'll be on Pixar's level by November

i was looking through an old snapchat memories and one of them was ju7st me crying about hyow much i wantedf to die or something and all i could thinmk aBOUT as I read it was how i basically unwittingly accidentally quoted the fucking horrorskunx version of kaufmo the clown and i lasugfhed rea;;y hard

tghnks so much for 1 follwers!!!!

look into krita because i've used it before and it's kind of similar to how drawing works in blender 2d but it's easier to add colour (as opposed to blender 2d which I literally would have to wish on a monkey paw for it to properly work in a way that's easy and makes sense) (and that's a bad idea because then it's going to come back to bite me because that's how monkey paws work so it's not an option) (and also they arent real) but i've tried animating in krita before and it didn't seem to be as fluent as blener's animation so I GUESS WE'LL SEE WHAT HAPEns!P

Disreguard the negative things i post i'm probably just in a bad mood don't pay it any mind

I wish blender would just tell me to kill myself instead of sabotaging my every attempt to make myself happy and driving me to that point, stop wasting my fucken time and all that yknow

this is the only thing i've got going for me this is the only reason I have to live I don't want to put up with some fuckin' invisible yo-kai messing with my computer and suddenly making all the important buttons on the only animation software I have access to dissapear, people who say they enjoy this shit are FUCKING lying i know what you are you're miserable just like me

Why isn't it working this should literally be the easiest part