i have all these conspiracy theories about how every other artist who animates or uses shit like "Blender" or "Audacity" is cheating in some form or whatever but in truth i just need to accept that i'm a big fat fucking retard and i'm never going to properly figure this shit out because you just need to be born with that knowledge

i'm sick of this shit, i'm offing myself, this is the only reason i'm sticking around and if i'm not able to do it then what's the fucking point

pro tip for aspiring animators: Unless you're fucking Neo and you can just import all the information into your head, just give up and die it's all downhill from the moment you downloaded blender